サヨナラダイアリー ～ their whereabouts // 凋叶棕

Sumireko reflecting on the last summer of the Heisei era.

Title: サヨナラダイアリー　～ their whereabouts (Farewell Diary ~ their whereabouts
Circle: 凋叶棕 / Publisher: Melonbooks Records
Album: 東方 Compilation CD-BOOK 萃星霜 弐

八月○日
今日は何も無い。すばらしく、退屈な一日だった。
hachigatsu maru nichi
kyou wa nani mo nai. subarashiku, taikutsuna ichinichi datta.

August, the ○th
Nothing happened today. It’s an amazingly boring day

夢を見て　目が覚めて
その想いに揺ら揺られ
yume wo mite me ga samete
sono omoi ni yura yurare

I dream, I wake up
Those feeling sway inside me

うだるよな　とろけそうな
誰かが死にそうな青空
udaru yo na toroke sou na
dareka ga shi ni sou na aozora

Under the sun so hot
You could almost melt and die

人一人　いやしない
ファストフードの片隅
夢の続きに思いを馳せて
hito hitori iyashinai
fasuto fuudo no katasumi
yume no tsudzuki ni omoi wo hasete

With no one at all around me
In a corner of a fast food restaurant
I let my thoughts run off to the continuation of my dream

街行く子供が　楽しげにはしゃぐ
そういうとこだけ　どっちでも変わらないんだな
machiyuku kodomo ga tanoshige ni hashagu
sou iu toko dake docchi demo kawaranai nda na

Kids in the town run around happily
It seems like that’s the one thing that never changes

それじゃあ　まだ明日
そんな言葉掛け合った
sore jaa mada ashita
sonna kotoba kakeatta

“See you tomorrow!”
They parted like that

あいつらは　きっとまだ
何も知らずにいるんだ
aitsura wa kitto mada
nani mo shirazu ni iru nda

They surely
Still don’t know a thing

前向いて　よそ見して
変わらず無敵のままで
mae muite yoso mishite
kawarazu muteki no mama de

Face forward, look aside
Invincible as always

今という時間のその全て　それが無限に続くだけ
ima to iu jikan no sono subete sore ga mugen ni tsudzuku dake

Everything in the time we call the present extends on forever

今日という日のその向こうに
明日が来ることを知っても
kyou to iu hi no sono mukou ni
ashita ga kuru koto wo shitte mo

Beyond what we call today
Knowing tomorrow’s going to come

それで何が変わっただろう？
不思議なことなど何も無い
sore de nani ga kawatta darou?
fushigi na koto nado nani mo nai

Just what exactly has changed?
There’s nothing surprising here anymore

たとえばこの何もかもが
全部変わってしまっても
tatoeba kono nani mo kamo ga
zenbu kawatte shimatte mo

If perhaps, everything
Will end up changing

それでもきっとその全て「たどりつく」だけ
soredemo kitto sono subete ‘tadoritsuku’ dake

Even then, surely, everything will “reach” there

八月×日
今日は何も無い。すばらしく、退屈な一日だった。
hachigatsu batsu nichi
kyou wa nani mo nai. subarashiku, taikutsuna ichinichi datta

August, the ×th
Nothing happened today. It’s an amazingly boring day

振り返り　大通り
大画面に映る文字
furikaeri oodori
daigamen ni utsuru moji

I turn around on the main street
And see the words on the billboard

つまらない　意味のない
終わる時代の残影
tsumaranai imi no nai
owaru jidai no zan’ei

Boring and meaningless.
Such are the remnants of the ending era

ありきたり　流行り廃り
何もかもばかばかしい
誰も気にもしてない気がする
arikitari hayari sutari
nani mo kamo baka bakashii
dare mo ki ni mo shite nai ki ga suru

Ordinary and easily replaceable,
Everything is just so ludicrous!
And it looks like no one is bothered by that

街行く子供が　楽しげにはしゃぐ
そういうとこだけ　どっちでも変わらないんだな
machiyuku kodomo ga tanoshige ni hashagu
sou iu toko dake docchi demo kawaranai nda na

Kids in the town run around happily
It seems like that’s the one thing that never changes

私より　より無敵
なんという相対性
watashi yori yori muteki
nan to iu soutaisei

Much, much more invincible than me
Such a relativity it is!

愚かしさ　浅はかさ
尚余りある強さが
orokashisa asahakasa
nao amari aru tsuyosa ga

Stupidity and shallowness
And the strength in both of them

そうすこし　煩わしい
そしてどこか恐ろしい
sou sukoshi wazurawashii
soshite dokoka osoroshii

It’s a little annoying
But at the same time, terrifying

心のどこかに掠るように　その重さだけ耐え難い
kokoro no dokoka ni kasuru you ni sono omosa dake taegatai

Brushing my heart softly, that weight is just so unbearable!

たとえ昨日を見据えても　どれだけ後ろをむいても
ああ川の流れのように　前に進んでいくだけなのか
tatoe kinou wo misuete mo dore dake ushiro wo muite mo
aa kawa no nagare no you ni mae ni susundeiku dake na no ka

We can cling on to tomorrow, we can keep looking behind
But aah, we’re just like the flow of the river – all we can do is move forward

そんな意味などないんだと　虚空に向けて呟く先
誰も彼もを道連れに『明日』
sonna imi nado nai nda to sora ni mukete tsubuyaku saki
dare mo kare mo wo michidzure ni “nekusuto hisutorii”

There’s no such deep meaning in it, I whisper facing the empty sky
Everyone is dragged along to tomorrow the next history

何も怖くない？
またあっちで逢えばいい？
帰らない戻らない　最後の夏に
そっと別れを告げるよう　未来によせたダイアリー
nani mo kowakunai?
mata acchi de aeba ii?
kaeranai modoranai saigo no natsu ni
sotto wakare wo tsugeru you mirai ni yoseta daiarii

Are you not scared of anything?
Would it be okay to meet here again?
It’s the last summer. No way we can go back to it
I will carry this diary to the future, so that I can softly say goodbye to it

ただはやく　ただはやく
時代は加速していく
tada hayaku tada hayaku
jidai wa kasoku shite iku

So fast, so fast
The times speed up

明日も　明後日も
そしてその次の日も
ashita mo asatte mo
soshite sono tsugi no hi mo

Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow
And the next one

唯一性　反故にして
はたしてこの自分だけ
yuiissei hogo ni shite
hatashite kono jibun dake

Uniqueness is now thrown away
And as expected, I am too

永遠でなどいられようか？　お前もいつか置いていかれる
eien de nado irareyou ka? omae mo itsuka oiteikareru

Will it remain forever? You will be left behind one day too

始まる時代があるのなら
終わる時代もあるのだろう
hajimaru jidai ga aru no nara
owaru jidai mo aru no darou

If an era begins
The other must end

置いていかれたものたちと
置いていくものたちの世界
oiteikareta monotachi to
oite iku monotachi no sekai

There are those, that were left behind
And there’s the world of those people

その二つよも知る私よ
お前は何処に行けばいい？
sono futatsu yo mo shiru mono yo
omae wa doko ni ikeba ii?

I am the one who knows both of them.
I wonder, where will you go?

「たどりつく」先を知らない、その行来。
‘tadoritsuku’ saki wo shiranai, sono yukusue.

After you “reach” there, you still do not know your fate.